1st anniversary of our wedding

Alhamdulillah, esok. Genap setahun perjalanan kami bersama.
Diraikan dengan sembuhnya hamba yang diduga dengan herpes zoster ini=)
Sakit dah takde, cuma telinga bengang lagi, tapi masih lagi boleh malas nak menuam dgn sireh ubat tu. huhu....

Perjalanan bersama setahun. Satu perkataan je yang cukup menggambarkan segalanya ....

ALHAMDULILLAH YA RABB.

Maybe i need to write a special monologue? epilog? ntah le ... special version about our 1 year journey. Another time maybe.

This time, i just wannna write about what is growing inside me. Huhu, not yet a baby! Instead i am having my period after 3 month straight smayang. Sight=) Its a good news what .... There is something new, specially and slowly grow inside me. i feel ...urm, lebih ingin berkasih sayang. Tiba2, terasa nak membela kitten. Jadinya, i bring a kitten (butek) from Delong to Paloh, ajak dia merantau bersama aku ke sini. Menemani dan meriangi hati kami ini. He is healthy! Tapi ada kutu sket. Esok lusa nak bawak dia gi imunisasi, and now he is observing me writing this. Tadi mula2 sampai dia tak kasi aku main fb, dia nak main jugak. Pandai kan kitten zaman skrg? =)

And i already have 2 aquariums. 1 with guppies, with 4 adult n 4 baby, and yet will have more babies guppies sooner! Ibu guppy tu dah kembong lagik! Luckily, i have 3-1 males female guppy, so the cutie mutie daddies keep the babies from the wild mummy! So, i the baby is so healthy and yet still alive till now, dah besar pom. I have to buy another big well build and equipped aquarium for them dapat gaji ni. Kesian dorang .... hehe...suke ..suke....suke. I am so happy.

Kat ofis, i have a aquarium full of Panchax. Herm, so sedey, apa la nasib dorang seminggu aku sakit ni. Hope masih hidup, happy dan tak susahkan salmah and kakzu with their odours ... Harapnye lah. Dan sbb merekalah aku bersemangat nak gi keje esok! Nak tengok dorang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Malam anniversary. Hubby tengok bola. I am so okay. Bukan tade perasaan. Hehe, cuma i think i am so rational with the fact that we should have our own live in our belonging live. Haiyya...betol ke tu? I mean, dia kena ada hidup dia dan i enjoy being alone for a while. With my kitten, this blog, facebook, quran and ibadah. Every one should be that way.

Sekarang sepatutnya saya kena menggosok baju,tapi saya malas. Nanti saya buatlah. Hehe.

Peringatan dan Nikmat serta Rahmat

Assalamualaikum,
A long day. I am not well. Very2 not well. I got a bad plague. The same day i got interview for PERMANENT POST and APPROVAL FOR RM15,600 FOR MY RESEARCH. Herm, very weak insan. Dapat 2 anugerah dan satu dugaan yang sebenarnya kafarah, yang dugaan tu disebutnya dulu. Isk, isk, isk. Astaghfirullah al Azim, semoga Tuhan ampunkan daku.

Penyakit ni ikut pembacaan di internet, boleh tahan sampai 2 minggu. huhu, camana lah tu ,... semoga cepat sembuh. Sebelum ni bila sakit aku jarang juga mintak sembuh cepat, cuma minta diberi kesabaran je, cuma this time the penyakit really interupting my life as a worker dan isteri. Kesian hubby, jadinya Tuhan akan beri apa yang terbaik, hari ni dah hari 4, alahai, baru 4 hari sakit...dah kecoh! Tuhan akan beri yang terbaik InsyaAllah...

Doakan saya.

kami kena berjimat!

haiyak, nasib baik ada pungutan zakat yang menyedarkan kami yang kami ni sebenarnya dah teroverspent!

alhamdulillah, teguran Allah masih membuka hati kami untuk buat perubahan di tahun baru ini. I hope this is not a hangat2 taik ayam punya resolution! semoga beristoqamah la kami dengan perkara berjimat cermat ini. Lagipun perbelanjaan untuk sambung belajar pun kena dihitung kira, jadi di sinilah kami bermula untuk berbelanja seadanya.

Dan sedihnya, ada segelintir sahabat di sini, mengambil mudah hal zakat ini. They said, " saya punye belanja takde lebih jadi tak perlu lah bayar zakat." herm...kan Tuhan dah kata 1/3 dari rezeki kamu tu milik orang lain...disalurkan melalui kamu. Dan kewajipan berzakat berkali2 disebutkan dalam Al-Quran, jadi semoga tidak di ambil ringan perkara ini kepada sesiapa yang membaca. This is our first time paying Zakat Pendapatan since this is our First Year of Working. Tapi, hukhuk...kena tunggu gaji jugak dulu baru boleh dilunaskan sbb ada keperluan mendesak baru2 ini. Semoga dipanjangkan umur kami ke tarikh itu...

1 year++ of waiting, Alhamdulillah, Khamis ni InsyaAllah kami akan menghadiri 3rd interview in UDM. This time for a promising future: TETAP. Semoga dipermudahkan urusan kami. Syukran Ya Rabb.

Jadi antara langkah pengjimatan kami adalah: MAKAN DI RUMAH SELAGI MAMPU!
Bunyinya macam agak melelahkan: SYAZNI MINTA SHIDA MASAK FOR LUNCH.
Hehe, dinner no prob tapi, this week we gonna try to cook for lunch plak. Keistiqamahannya? Dunno yet, tengok la dulu. Tak berani janji. Hehe.

Menu minggu ini:
Esok : Nasi + Kari Daging + Sayur Kobis
Selasa: Gi Rawang. Kedai kot ...
Rabu : Ikan layur masak asam + ikan goreng + timun
Khamis : Interview , mkn luor kot
Jumaat: Ayam masak lemak cili api + telur goreng + sayur campur
Sabtu : Ikan kicap + Kangkung belacan

Minggu Depan.
Ahad: Kelas pagi. mlm: Nasi Goreng + Sup
Isnin: Nasi Ulam + Daging Bakar
Selasa : Udang masak marah serai + telur + sayur ape2
Rabu : Masak lemak kobis + Ikan goreng + sambal belacan
Khamis : Nasi Ayam ...uiii...

Okay, sudah lah! banyak nye perancangan, bukan ape, di KPI seorang isteri je ni. hehe. Nx week kita wat penilaian mana yang jadi mana yang tak jadi. Plus, plan will assist you to work for it, sebagai contoh, dengan senarai ni petang nanti senang skit nak gi beli barang for the whole week. Kan? kan? kan?

Okay, mood baik betol hari ni.

Self Reflection 2

it is 1st day of 2010. Its raining, cooling the usually hot day. i end the year 2009 with a great day, i have a gotong royong with my students to prepare the hatchery for our mini project and classes. and in the evening i climbed Bukit Besar with kak Asmad. We tall about so many things. But there is one big thing that really make me .... aiyah : TERKILAN.

Semalam, i was okay but i dun think that i am that okay because i keep thinking about it till this morning. I hope God will forgive me to feel this way. I do think a lot, last night, even in my dream! Yang pasti, i try as much as i could to tell my little heart which is so fragile that ... urusan rezeki itu benar2 urusan Tuhan... dan jangan sesekali terkilan dengan rezeki yang bukan diberi pada kita. i believe there must be a good reason for all these things.

If i am a pengarah for a theather, i will give a role, to someone who is capable to play the role well. In this case...yeah, i am begging my Allah for some role and yet He said, nop shida, not yet... improve yourself.

So things i need to improve this newly budding year ....
1. Quality of my Solat
2. Quality of work
3. Communication with fellow friends
4. Communication with higher level person
5. Involvement in non-academic matters
5. My research ....

And i got a good news too, YUYU was ke is? getting married this morning. A wonderful date for their next anniversary : 1/1/2011. A year after me, but she really made it. During schooldays, we plan our life in a piece of paper. Marriage: 25 years old. And there, we both made it. Alhamdulillah. For me, marriage... is a great gift. There you go shida ... when you start thinking of good things in your life all the "blue moon" will be just ... a small dot in your wonderful life, maybe the dot was there to make you realize that you are really a normal person which have a good life.

Hubby is sleeping, and i think i should start mengemas rumah. Till then... hargai kehidupan.

self reflextion 1

QANAAH, mungkin dah lama hamba terlalai dari memupuk sifat itu dalam diri. Mungkin sejak akhir2 ini hamba hidup dengan permintaan yang banyak sedang seharian mengharung hidup hanya dengan belas ikhsan Tuhan yang memberi terlalu banyak dari apa yang selayaknya hamba peroleh.

EXPECTATION WILL LEAD TO FRUSTRATION. Since i was so young, i always tell myself not to expect much in whatever I do in MY life. It is good to play safe. Harungi sahaja apa yang ada dihadapan. But actually, its okay to put some expectation, for the reason, it will motivate us to work for what we expect, but at the same time, berlapang dada....seperti yang Rasul kekasih kita ajarkan. For the reason, life is not always what you expect but it is all about what God want you to live on, learn on, be grateful on... What a beautiful deen Islam is ....

And for a long time ... also ... i did not have my list of MUHASABAH. Self Reflextion. Which mean, i do not improve my personality since then. Means i do not put an effort to make myself not included in the golongan orang2 yang celaka, yang mana hari ini tiada lebih baik dari semalam. Astaghfrullahal Azim ...so i should initiate something. Maybe can be shared here for those who is reading to take benefit on. Is the sentence okay?

Urm. Need to go to the toilet. Buhbye.

i have an aquarium full of fishes

hi, second post today. rajin tol...
finally, after 1 year becoming full time aquaculture lecturer here, i got a room which means i have enough space to have an aquarium. and since i am now have started my work on A.panchax, in spite of buying expensive ornamental fishes from mingyu, i catch my panchax on my own. (^-^) thanx bioD for developed that skill in this lady.

not yet have the picture to upload, but i really love the sound of dripping water. i bought a submersible filter with water dripper (ada ke?). i like! i am so happy. happy like a fish in soft acidic water. hehe.

the sound really calming and soothing my heart. kan baby?

mencuri itu haram..

i should now, updating and reviewing practical manual AQS 4063 but ... ayaks! so malas. this morning, we went to our hatchery since syafiq complaining that his fishes might be stolen. so we counted every single fishes in every replicates, ouch, i still feel the backpain for doing that. and yup, it was stolen. in a big amount, but littlelittle(^-^) from every cages.

i really dun understand what kind of people is dare to tanggung dosa for stealing a small fish, that might only be sold for 80cent or rm1 per pieces. if we have arowana or kelah and it is dissapear then...no wonderlah. ni haruan.olololo...tak padan nak kena bakar kat neraka nanti.

halalkan? its not my money. it is government life assets. so, mintak la government halalkan. so pity this short shallow minded people. alang2 nak rompak, rompakla rumah pengedar dadah ke, ibu ayam ke...

but, u dun want this thing to stress me out. eh, ade eh ayat gitu? cause, i still hope that i am pregnant. period delay 3 weeks, but hpt negative. but the tokbidan said, just wait. cause my sis, 3 bulan baru bleh detect. but really pray hard, if this little tiny baby is now growing in me, peliharakan ya Rabb ... kalau takde ...takpe, bulan depan ade lagi. =)