Ramahan Kareem di Perantauan

Alhamdulillah.
8 Ramadhan.
Masa berlalu pantas.
Dengan masa yang ada kami berdua di sini beramal semampunya.
Ramdhan ini berbeda.
Sahur seawal jam 3.
Subuh seawal jam 3.40 pagi.
Seusai subuh, harus tidur. Kalau tak terlalu mengantuk untuk rutin seterusnya di makmal.
Berbuka jam 7.10.
Jadinya hampir 16 jam ++.
Suhu musim panas, sekitar 29 - 35 degreeC.
Paling lama saya mampu kerja di lab pun sehingga jam 3 sahaja setakat ni.
Tapi Alhamdulillah, minggu pertama puasa ni banyak kerja harus dibereskan di kampus utama.
Jadi belum banyak perlu memandu siang hari ke lab.
Minggu ini bermula rutin seperti biasa.

Minggu lepas dapat arahan untuk join sampling membantu pelajar tahun 3 di pulau berhampiran.
Menelan liur saya mendengarnya.
Saya mohon pertimbangan untuk tidak turut serta memandangkan puasa.
Tak terbayang rasanya nak berpanas seharian suntuk dalam keadaan ini.
Jawapan Sensei mengecewakan pada mulanya.
Saya akur. Dalam pasrah.
Menangis di rumah sebenarnya. Entah apa-apa.
Sebab lepas sampling saya harus memancing lagi.
Ada sahabat pesan, mengadu pada Allah, insyaAllah Dia uruskan.
Saya mengadu, suami juga berdoa kuat, sedih lihat isterinya menangis mungkin.
Tiba-tiba Sensei menelefon.
Mengatakan tugasa itu sekarang jadi optional, memikirkan mungkin ia boleh menjejaskan kesihatan saya.
Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah. Allahuakbar.
Ajaibnya Ramadhan.
Jadi saya decide untuk tidak ikut ke pulau, tunggu mereka di lab.
Dan bantu untuk identification walaupun kerjanya bakal berakhir malam hari.
Sekurang-kurangnya saya rasa berterima kasih atas pertimbangan Sensei.

Terima kasih Allah atas peliharaanMu.


Kepada semua sahabat pejuang seluruh dunia.
Selamat berpuasa.
Selamat berjuang.
Yang di hemisfera utara, berjuang untuk waktu puasa yang panjang.
Yang di hemisfera selatan, berjuang dengan tuntutan perut yang lebih di musim dingin.
Yang di garis kahtulistiwa, berjuang menahan keselesaan kampung halaman.
Semuanya tidak mudah.
Tapi tidak mudah mengaku iman tanpa ujian.
Buat semua, semoga berpesta ibadah dengan penuh syukur dan mengharap.

Post emo....

Dah sangat lama tak menulis apa2.
Sibuk sket.
Nak raya dan ....nak berhijarah demi ilmu.
Esok raya sudah, today last day berpuasa.
Tahun ini, ada cuti. Alhamdulillah. Saya belajar ... buat:
Kuih dahlia yg kuning siyor terlebih kastad.
Kukis debok adik yang yummy.
Konflek hani yg lain.
Kukis prun yg gulanye tak hancur.
Tat prancis yg keras skit so kena terap.
Kukis kanada (balsam) yg best .....
Kek chiffon.
Kuih belimbing yg hubby panggil kuih bintang. Senang sangat meh....

Kenapa belajar buat semua tu?
Sbb that is the best way to get close and spend precious left time before I fly to Japan this Sept. Ramadhan depan, saya pun tak tahu masih panjang umur atau tidak. Lagipun, kalau takleh balik tahun depan, senang skit buat sendiri. Huhu.

Tiket dah confirm.
Di sana alhamdulillah akan ada family yang baik hati tumpangkan kami seminggu.
SV, sudah beritahu yang awal Nov akan ada sampling.
I do not know if I already prepared mentally, but just have to redah it.
Semoga dipermudahkan urusan dunia akhirat.
And I keep reminding myself that this journey and perjuangan is not for myself. It has to be because of God. I want to learn more, and become a better person because I want to be a better slave of Allah. Yang akan pulang dengan ilmu dan akan beri manfaat kepada orang di Malaysia.
Melihat perjalanan sahabat2 di UDM, ops, now UnisZa. I have to say that, tak mudah untuk sampai ke sini, kalau bukan dengan pertolongan Allah, kalau bukan dengan keizinan Allah.
Sometime,bila terasa malas dan nak jadi surirumah, I keep reminding myself, God chose you for reasons. Yang hanya Dia tahu. Maha Suci Allah.
My job now and 4 years onwards is buat perkara ini bersungguh.
Teringat kata Linda Onn... Tak kisahlah apa destinasinya yang penting apa yang kita pelajari sepanjang perjalanan menuju destinasi.
Tapi, tetap berdoa untuk yang terbaik. Semoga tercapai matlamatnya.

Esok raya. Ramadhan dah tinggalkan kita. Tapi rasa sedih plak, amalan makin berkurang bila hari2 makin sibuk. Semoga ketemu Ramadhan tahun hadapan dan berupaya menjadikannya lebih baik.

Bersyukur, refleksi dari penerimaan bukan sekadar luahan kata

IELTS ...lagi seminggu penantian. For the time being, focus on Caligids sampling.
Calling here and there for free fishes! Dun have much money leave to buy lots of costly fishes.
Hubby and RA's (got 2 already, Nani and Khairi), ahaks...cant believe it sometimes ... got grant to pay them. Feel so good to give them such opportunity to gain money and works, and at the same time they help me doing the research. They now work hard to find only 10 Panchaxs ... but at these dry season, so hard to find even 1 pair of it. Haiyaa..... May God bless us with at last 10 Panchax. hehe.

This evening, should head to UMT for 1stBase event, but do not know if Hubby still want to go coz he is now in the paya with khairi looking for the fishes!

One blogger friend .... already almost 4 years married, also got problem to get baby. And, he and her couple were working so hard towards it. If I made my own assumption, from what I read, she really stress with "their condition" now. Or maybe I will feel and react the same way in next 2 years? Dunno ....

I remember, I used to read one unknown writer wrote ....

First I was dying to finish high school and start college. And then I was dying to finish college and start working. Then I was dying to marry and have children. And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough so I could go back to work. But then I was dying to retire. And now, I am dying . . . And suddenly I realized I forgot to live.

The writer then, continue to say ....

Please don’t let this happen to you.

 Appreciate your current situation and thank God for the good and bad in your life.

If you are living for God, your current situations are working for good.

Remember that everyday is a day of thanksgiving.

Give God the praise for what He is doing in your life right now.

Perhaps something is amiss or has gone awry, but the Lord is still in charge and He has promised never to leave you nor forsake you.

The song declares that, “This Too Shall Pass”, because God is working it out for you.

EKoonomi Kiter

Suddenly realize that I grew so fast.




Hehe.(PETI AIS).









Now already need to think about that TITLE. Since I obviously involves in it since I start working and get married and we start to buy our own properties.









Government said that the economy now growing better, than last year. With the 1-2 % increment. Cannot remember. But what really happen today, does bother me much.









Subsidy for fuel, sugar, flour, cooking oil and toll will be reduced. Berperingkat. But of course will give a big impact to our life after this.









All those components is the essential of life, which mean, the increment of those component prices will lead to the overall goods' price increment.









By year 2012, one slice of bread may cost us RM1.



1 cup of teh tarik might cause us RM 3.



Lunch with nasi berlauk might cost us RM20.



And transportation?



1 trip to work? From K.T to Tembila?



1 trip to KL by bus or flight?



Children school fees?



Medicine?









..... Our salary? ..................



Our lower grade staff? Zihan? Faiz?









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Going abroad. Is that still affordable in this situation?



Or the right question might sound like ... Is it still MUNASABAH/LOGIC for us to apply for scholarship in this situation?









Our dream house in Tembila?









May everyting going back to normal. What is normal? Getting better.









How?















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The thing that really bother me today is ..... my home loan naik lagi buat kali kedua tahun ni! BFR naik lagi!!!

algae for biofuel

i was in KL. still in KL, i shud fly back to kt dis morning but the plan ruined {ops, ruined?? kejamnye!)... the plan bertukar because my hubby want to drive me back. but then, sampai skrg i am still stuck here. I noticed that, lately, i du not really enjoy being away from my house, n my environment[i called it so], for a long time. not more than 3 days.

I was here for Algae Summit 2009. I came here for one reason; to determine if algae is realy my interest. i mean i still figuring out what to do for phd. and to be honest, this is the most interesting and enjoyable conference i had ever attend in my whole career. and therefore, i conclude that i like algae so much. (^-^)

and in this conference i also clarify which part should i jump and [dive] into, considering all the limitation. and most of the limitation are my weaknesses. hehe. i am a dummies in so many science field. and i have to admit that, i am so tak pandai. org yang tak pandai takboleh pergi jauh mane kot

banyak lagi nak tulis tapi malas. nanti lah.

sehati berdansa

hehe, berdosa, tau tapi still tengok.alangkah seronoknye mengutuk andai adik beradikku yang pengkritik hebat itu ada menengok bersamasama. tengok sorang2, jadinya mengutuk di facebook n di sini sahaja.
one word : KASIHAN!

kesian kat mereka2 yang choose to dance for charity...tadop kije sungguh. but i have to say that, dancing need something natural in you. its a gift, i mean the ability to dance well. lam program tu, sape yang pandai...nampak pandai, and so mean to say this; but yang bodoh tu nampak bodoh la. hakhak. keras giler. nasib baik aku masih diselamatkan dari kejahilan dan kesesatan itu.
to b honest, hehe, pernah ada cita2 nak belajar menari. masuk umt, hampir nak mendaftar, tapi tak jadi sebab yang yang mengajarnye lelaki lembut yang merasakan diri mereka itu perempuan. senang2 aje sentuh anak2 muridnye.hehe,tak kuasa aku menyerah pada yang tak bayar mahar...mahal wes nak pegang tangan i. hehe=)

herm, dunia... pikirlah sendiri, kata nabil. isk3, aku sangat keastroan sekarang, bahana tv. nampaknye kena pinjam buku banyak2 supaya kurang tengok tv n this interneting.

hubby is not at home right now, tengok bola,may God take care of him. nak larang pun tak boleh. dah besar panjang, pikirlah sendiri. tadi sebelum pegi dia bagi aku makan satu meja penuh makanan, hakhak, rasuah la tu supaya aku tak marah. kui2x.lawak tol.

herm, kena start wat proposal phd. tapi taktau nak pilih tajuk. nak wat nutrition takut tak biasa. nak wat algae takut tak mampu. hukhuk. smoga Allah permudahkan dan cenderungkan kepada tajuk yang boleh membawa kepada kejayaan di akhirnye nanti. mau sangat ada phd, its not really the title that matter. tapi, aku rasa phd, will permudahkan jalan untuk aku permudahkan jalan orang lain. faham x?

dah malas nak tulis. ok. berhenti sekarang.